Day Three: Recovery

 The journey between the negative and the positive isn't linear. The healing journey is like a roller coaster. Twists, turns, loops, switchbacks, this journey is full of them. I despise the phrases like: "It happened so long ago.", "Aren't you over it yet?" and "It's time to move on." These phrases are ignorant in nature. An event can happen years ago but when someone has a panic attack or a flashback, to that person, the event is recent. That trauma happened just then. That pain is still relevant. In some cases, that pain will ALWAYS be relevant. Healing isn't linear. 


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